Forgive me father for I have sinned.
My sins are many but to one I will confess
it is little to the eye but holds a weight
that caused my heart to sink
sink so fast as seaweed from whence it rose
my spirit cries out for relief towards you.
My thoughts are many, my words are few
I don’t know where to start but I state my case
and wish to be heard by you and only you
Like a dove listens to its mate alone
I want you to listen.
I killed him… sucked the life out of him
Watched as he strained and tried to get his last breath
A small price to pay so we can live, so I can live
He took me from the village to tame me
He wanted me to be his, but I turned into him
Loved him I did, hated him I couldn’t.
His ideals lead to a discontinuation
Of our experimental designs of satisfaction
A beauty that I was known by, faded away
The passion that drove my life, cooled
My life turned like summer turned to winter
Knowing that the cold was there to stay.
Above all else I tried to be true, true to be me
For joy to follow, as night follows day
But a shell of a woman I became
A ghost in my own life
That’s the beauty I acquired
When two joins to be one.